i don't even want to write this.

and i don't even have anything to say. except that today is the first day of classes, and i'm already exhausted and sort of sick.

i am babysitting right now. one kid is at preschool and the other is napping. so i have time to fill. but i'm in a state of mismatched feelings. i want to do something, but nothing seems like the right thing to do. you know that feeling when you are trying to read some article online and you don't even make it past the first paragraph because your brain just feels so full already? or when you go to youtube to listen to a song and you can't think of any that adequately express the inside of your brain? that describes this moment.

so, i'm going to just sit. and maybe eat a star crunch.